2012 is going to be a great year! So many activities happening. Getting married, having a baby, his family reunion, I get to meet the rest of his family…nervous!
Officially by next weekend, I will be married to the love of my life…been together for 3 years, engaged for a year and we are expecting our first baby girl due in May! We have been through some rough patches, just like all couples, but at the end of the day we are still together and getting stronger as a couple.
Recently, I have had some complications with my pregnancy, blacking out and fainting twice in the last 1 1/2 months, doctor say its a heart murmur. We shall see at the next appointment. But, with all this he has been there every step of the way, at every doctor’s appointment, making sure I am taking my prenatal pills and taking care of myself and the baby. He supports, understands, respects, and loves me. He has proven to be the man I knew he was, he has grown up a lot. This morning he woke up with a huge smile on his face. I asked why was he cheesing so hard, he looked at me and said, “MY baby girls” and kissed me.
Why do we have to be so different?? I know deep down inside of me that you love me just as I do love you! Cant we just get over all this crap that we are going thru?
Im retarded and stupid, but I do love you and it hurts when we are not together. Literally, last night it was raining like crazy, with lightning and thunder and all I could do is cry in bed, wanting you in my bed with me, just to hold me. Nothing else, just hold me.
I don’t care about the material things!! I care about the quality time that we spend together, the attention that you give me, just like what I give you ALL THE TIME. I care if I am giving, giving, giving and you can’t even say THANK YOU! Or you say it after you complained about what I did or after I told you, “why can’t you just say thank you w/o complaining”???
WHY??????
It sure as heck gets OLD FAST!!! And when I get fed up, I END IT ALL and I don’t want to, that is what YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND!!
